Fifteen years of waiting, living in suspense
my freedom about to be dashed
the day has arrived – the day I dread
Forced to leave the only home I know
Pounding at the front door vibrates in my head
echoes in my ears, jerks me awake – afraid!
In her sleep, Maadar cries out in Farsi
The banging continues, it will not stop
I cling to my pillow as a life raft
I am in the sea, surrounded by sharks.
I force my legs to move - to answer the door
Immigration barges in, Maadar awakes,
shrieks and cowers - terrified – memories vivid
of Evin Prison in Tehran - torture
Stern faces gaze at us, show no mercy
here to escort us to the plane
shipped back to a country I don’t know
my education in English – not equipped for life
in a country with foreign ways and tongue.